Though after awhile it became more than just men in bands, because my obsession with beauty started to grow. Now, here I mean, my opinion of beauty. I've long ago noticed that my opinions of what is sexy and beautiful are often thought of as horrendous and "wrong" to most people. Now, as I've gotten older I've noticed that it isn't really "effeminate" men that I am attracted to, but more androgynous men. I absolutely love a man who literally can look like a female one moment and a male the next and I typically don't like them to act like a girl. I actually love when they are endlessly male. I love when they walk, talk, act like a man, even to the point where they can actually be a bit vulgar with their friends.
I don't entirely agree with the "getting in touch with you feminine side" saying because I don't believe that every thing should be just for females or just for males. I avidly believe in most things being unisex and if that's what a person is into then so be it. A perfect example is Bill Kaulitz, the lead singer of Tokio Hotel. I find him ABSOLUTELY attractive and sexy, and I love the way he carries himself. Just from the way he walks to how he speaks, he is undeniably male though he enjoys pigments and fashion. I'd actually love to meet him and raid his shoe closet, as I think we wear the same size shoe. Another great example of a fantastic example of androgynous male is the fabulous Michael James whom I've recently found his makeup tutorials and collaboration channel Androgenetics on YouTube. His absolute love for being male and never wanting to be female is to-die-for.
See, most people think that me wanting to be able to share clothes and makeup with my boyfriend is unnatural and taboo when really, to me, it seems extremely natural and almost expected. At my still young age, I already don't mix or relate well with my peers only because they simply do not understand how my mind works. I always find that men who are androgynous and it is not just a phase but a way of life for them and natural, they think in a similar way that I do and I gravitate towards that as they gravitate towards me as well.
If someone were to ask me what my ideal relationship would be, it would be one that I described above with a beautiful androgynous boy that I just can't get enough of. I have always been attracted to androgynous males and I think I always will. It's not something I do to be controversial or to gain attention, it's simply my taste in men that has never failed me, but also had proved to be very hard to find.
I would love to find a man who was comfortable with themselves enough, or who is already avidly living as an androgynous man. I hope this clears a few misconceptions of my opinions on this type of lifestyle and I hope that if you are androgynous and reading this that you are more willing to get to know me.
Thank you so much if you've gotten to the end of this blog, I love you.